Winnipeg

I'm still pretty hype on my home town. If you know anything about Winnipeg you probably know that other than Regina is it the worst place to live in Canada. Climate's shit, transportation is bad and there is that prevalent social issue that litters the downtown core. Mind you it is getting better... but I am hype on Winnipeg for the people!

First and for most my Dad. haha always and forever.

So stoked

Then my family!

Nana and Grandpa!

+Aunts and Uncle

The cousins. FYI I love them all but Sarah is legit the closest thing I have to a sister. I imagine in some ways maybe better than, we don't have to be this close but we choose to be. Which says a lot because I haven't always been this stable.

I carry these old pictures around and cry every time I look at them.

Andi and this guy weren't born yet.

I'm glad he was though he taught me about Deadpool and we watched some superhero shows, decorated a cyber property and chat online on the regular. He had three birthday parties and I went to all of them.  

Then all my ladies. You are the best and I love you. I can't wait to see you again.


Cindy! I can type all the really emotional and detailed reasons why we are friends and why she is so great but it would take too long. I love her. No one compares.

JULI! We have matching everything!!!!! but are still so different in our own way and definitely act more like sisters than anything else. We laugh really hard, cry, dance, act silly, give each other shit, I tease her, and hold hands. It's the nicest and honestly if she was staying in Winnipeg I would have thought twice about leaving. 

Hi!!!! we're 16! just kidding! 

Sara and I were united after over 10 years of pretending to not knowing each other because at some point one of us stop saying hi and it just snowballed from there. But fate brought us back to each other, egos be damned. Seriously 2001 at the latest. 

We like denim! This was actually not the first time but this time someone took a picture. We also have matching friendship bracelets and navajo print fanny packs. Sara is yet to contribute the 3rd item.

We did everything together! Juli is taking some time to smell the dicks while Sara and I try to decide.

Tooooooo many!

I wanted to hang out with Sarah P every minute of every day! but I couldn't. When I could it was fun and nice.

 There were lots of other friends too but no pictures. Sorry!! I love you too! If I made the effort to see you in the short amount of time I had in Winnipeg it's because I love you very much.

These two cats! Leaving them is never easy but come on. "I would have taken my dream job and gotten paid double what I am now but I mean I have cats." Get a grip, you would have done the same and I would have understood. It sucks but this is real life and sometimes it gets messy. I will fully admit that 7 years ago I should have had the foresight to know that I was a fucking mess and never should have taken on the responsibility in the first place. What's done is done and I tried to give them the best life that I could for as long as I could.

Here are some other Winnipeg animals that I like. 

Jackson! so regal!

Obv I was eating a sausage. 

This is my nephew Bowser! He's racist!

This is my step sister Ginger. She did not get any French toast that day.  

And finally this is a special boy named Lester! He loves his stool! I love him and he didn't forget it!

I will be home for Spring next year! See you soon and miss you all already! Please skype! I am available from 5-9pm Sun-Thurs. Soon probably more because I will get WIFI sooon! Also if you don't already get Kakao! it's fun and I should be back online by July 4th at the latest. KISSES!

February 7 - May 23

I went home. I wasn't stoked about it. My memory was not kind when I thought of Winnipeg but maybe it was because my only source of stress resided there.

It was cold, I had no job and no plan.

Things progressively got better.

For the first month I had resolved to go back to Korea so all I did was study and get my documents ready. I lived with Julianne and I applied for several jobs a day. I rarely left the house.

Then I found a job working for the province. Once I did I started considering staying in Winnipeg, I then became incredibly depressed and started applying for any teaching job in Korea I could find. Once shit started rolling I felt better. While I am reading this I realize how important a good job is. Winnipeg is lacking them at present. Also since I had a job I started having a little fun. I saw all of my friends at least once save for Darren but I tried. Then I started to love Winnipeg again. I feel like I can't win. When I am here I want to be there and vice versa. I'll be home for the summer and I can't wait. Plus since I know I am coming back and when I will hopefully set myself up quite a bit better. Hey Winnipeg can you all just move here? That would be ideal.

Anyway I feel really great that I got to see everyone and that in the short time I was there that I forged some new permanent best pals and reconnected with the old. I miss you all but we have kakao and skype so we will be alright.

Initially I decided to come back for a dude. Which is so dumb and I am aware especially since within the last 2 months I have had to admit to myself that the relationship was not ideal. I knew, but I still came here regardless because realistically the job is fun and the money is easy... I came last time to travel this time I am here to make bank. It's hard to get ahead back home but here I don't even have to try. I don't really feel like I am sacrificing since I am just as close with my friends as ever.

Mentally I am in a much better place... I will admit that I was a little bonkers last year and that being single and not having anyone constantly judging me was more than freeing and I definitely went a little too far.